freak out!

What am I without you?
It’s so simple, you know!
Without you I would still be me!
Or have you lost your mind already?

Once, you said you pity me
But it’s you I pity baby!
I can see the sadness in your eyes
The pain you can no longer hide

With you life is a roller coaster
Now you’re gone I’m happier!
You broke my heart, yes
But then I learned to be my best!

You think I will forever cry
the moment you decided to say goodbye?
On the contrary, life has just began
Now I am having more fun!

I have given you my life, my love
but you just threw it out
Yet you have just realized lately
You are nothing without me!

Now you are coming back
to turn my colorful sky into black?
But I’m no longer the foolish girl I used to be
I realized you are crap, you’re sorry!

You have been playing,
winning your foolish game
But now you lose,
who is to blame?

Without me you’re actually nothing, you see!
Better lose yourself by drowning into the sea!
Or just hung your self in Judas Iscariot’s tree!
Leave me, and just let me be!

illusion

Love??? No love...
it's just an illusion
it's not real...

Illusion??? Yes illusion...
it's what we need
to escape this fucking reality...

Escape??? Yes escape...
sanity brings vanity
lose you mind and you shall be happy...

Happiness??? Yes happiness...
pretend that love exist
live your illusion and happy you shall be...

(for my aunt)

I have an aunt
She’s so cute like an ant
Little but terrible too
She seldom get blue

Juliana is her name
Born on a July rain
She has a damn bright brain
But when she sings her voice seems to refrain

A while ago it was raining
But mystery of mystery it stopped dropping
Perhaps the rain heard her voice
Went back to heaven, changed its course

She is really beautiful
That many guys becomes full…or fool?
Whenever they take hold of her face
As if they are in sweet embrace

What is in her that is so amusing?
That every customer in her bar feels amazing
With eyes that are tantalizing
And the innocent smile of a virgin

She is understanding and kind
Like my beloved mother, one of a kind
It is difficult to find a person like her
Like an angel, wonder of wonder

A thoughtful mother
And caring sister
A loving daughter
And uh, well…an intelligent lover??

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Oh I wish I could write more beautiful poetry
so you could be more proud of me
I’m just not good with words
That is why my rhyming is worse.

I pretend to be a writer
but words always slip me hover
Anyways I’ll keep trying
Hopefully I’ll improve my rhyming

Pardon me “anty”
For being crazy
Today I just feel merry
Writing you poetry.